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My Journey – by slave bondage



At the time of writing this, I have been submitting to Mistress Star for exactly a year, and what a year it has been! She has given me a name and an identity, trusted me with her star on her server, and helped me come out of my shell.


To start with, I am now 66 years old, I found out I enjoyed bondage and female domination when I was 13 years old, so I have been a closet kinkster for my whole adult life. My main kink and fetishes then revolved around power exchange, mostly bondage and chastity. Wearing a chastity device was for me a way to be in bondage all the time without it being outwardly obvious.


To explain how I came to meet Mistress Star, I should rewind to the fall of 2022, after I purchased an electronic chastity cage called the Cellmate II, managed via an app called Qiui. Through that app, you can get someone else to control locking and unlocking your cage. There are a lot of scammers posing as mistresses using that app, I tried a few of them with very costly and unsatisfactory results. I was complaining about that on Fetlife when I received a very nice direct message from Mistress Star, explaining how sorry she was about me being scammed, and offering that I visit the BoundBDSM website and Discord Server, look at the chastity services that she offered, while explaining that with her, there was no surprises, you paid upfront and that’s it.


The communication with her was refreshing to me because she did not try to dominate me right away, which was different from my past experiences, instead she had me look at her services and rates and offered that I speak to her current slaves on Discord before making up my mind.


First commitment – 9-day chastity


I will call what Mistress Star and I have a relationship, but it is an online relationship, an online business relationship where each party gets a benefit. Our relationship started with a lengthy negotiation about a 9-day Chastity Keyholding commitment. Mistress Star took great lengths to find out about my wants and needs, and my limits, while explaining what she was all about. She made me feel good about the tryout.


The night of my first lock up on video, the second the lock clicked, she turned into the dominant that she is, and I was hooked, right there and then. It only took one instant. She is that good. I had been doing solo chastity for over 10 years, nothing prepared me for the exquisite feeling of giving up control over my genitals to someone else. She began right away playing mindfuck games with me. At that time, I had no idea what kind of sub I was, or even how far my kink went, but surprisingly, she seemed to. It’s like her superpower.


Second commitment – 3-month chastity


After the 9-day commitment was over, it became clear that it wasn’t enough, so I signed up for another stint, this time 3 months. I had found in those first few days what I’d been looking for, a place to discuss kinks freely, an understanding community, and best of all – although I did not realize it right away – a kink life coach disguised as a strict Mistress. Not only is there no scamming, but there is a whole infrastructure, the website, the Discord Server, the great events, and the experience behind this Pro Domme. The fact that Mistress Star is living her domination for real in her at home dynamic also makes a big difference, she is not playing, she’s living it, and I benefited from it.


The Sunday subs meeting, because of the time zone difference, caused me some headaches as it became hard to explain to my family why I was never available for Sunday dinner, and the meetings scared the heck out of me because you never know what can happen to you. You get your tasks from the previous week appraised, you get assigned new ones, and you get punished for failures. But despite all that, you get to experience Mistress Star in full domination mode, in her element, it is an indescribable feeling.


Speaking of tasks, in the year I have been with Mistress Star, I don’t remember a task that wasn’t geared towards me learning something about myself or my kinks or that did not somehow push my kink buttons. Even punishments for that matter always taught me something, however she doesn’t do “funishments”, none of her punishments are fun. It is also during that period that I opened my big mouth on Fetlife and let her know that I had an electric shock chastity cage. The dreaded “bondage button” came to life for the first time as a punishment on a Sunday night submissive meeting, I think it also scared my fellow submissives at the time. I have a love/hate relationship with it, as the pain is real and no fun, but it pleases Mistress Star so much. It has been used several times since then.


Third commitment – 3-month service slave


After being locked up for 90 days, I decided to re-up for another 3 months, and Mistress Star surprised me by offering to have it evolve away from chastity, and towards exploring the service and protocol aspect. This is how I became a slave, and no longer a submissive, even lower on Mistress Star’s hierarchy. The degradation aspect of this move did stir something in me, and I proudly embarked fully on this new journey that was different, more difficult, and less satisfying, at least initially. However, through discussions, I learned that this new reality was for me to see what service and slavery was about, and I got a taste of protocol. Ever since that move, I’ve had to say goodnight via WhatsApp to Mistress Star every night when going to bed and say good morning first thing when I woke up. So, for all this time – except for a few painful exceptions – I was reminded every night and every morning, that I belonged to Mistress Star, and I still do to this day. During that 3-month period, I learned so much about myself. I learned that I wasn’t 7/24 slave material, that Power exchange was my thing, but that I had a need for some vanilla time in my life. The protocol aspect made me realize that you can be restrained without any physical means, mental bondage is a real thing – it is so cool!


Mistress Star also suspected that I craved in-person domination and suggested that I try to meet Miss Isabella Dollish (who lives on the same continent) for an in-person session. It turned out to be a great suggestion – Miss Bella, it turns out, also has some superpowers, she got me hooked on spanking and impact play and gave me much more than a session. She held my hand while taking me outside of my comfort zone, opened my mind to a brand-new kink, and to a safe place to play. The two Mistresses tag-teamed to show me what real kink was all about. It is wonderful – and I want more. Mistress Star also strongly encouraged me to attend local events, which I started to do, and keep doing until this day.


From day one, I have been open with Mistress Star about my Erectile Dysfunction issues. She has often explained to me that there are two kinds of arousals, one is physical one is mental. That’s most likely why she didn’t push the chastity kink on me and why she had me explore other avenues. I thought from the start that she was right about that and that I understood what she meant, but until I really experienced mental arousal, I didn’t know how good it would be. That is what my spanking experience at Oasis showed me.


One of the other milestones of this period is that I now have a better handle on what it is that I need to feel arousal. Mistress Star had me work on an equation; a personal equation that describes what I need to feel aroused. Coming up with this equation took a lot of soul searching and I need to thank


honey for helping me with it, but it made my kink so much clearer. I now have all the tools that I need so that I know what to look for, I know exactly what kind of submissive I am, and how to spot the real dominants and the fakes. She has taught me all that.


Current commitment – One-on-one personal growth and plan for what’s next.


These last 3 months, we have signed up for a one-on-one commitment, where everything is about preparing me to fly on my own. Mistress Star has been giving me the tools for what’s next. Her goal for me would be that I find a partner, a play partner, or a local mistress to share my kink with. She gave me the tools for that. There is not an ounce of selfishness in this person, she is all about my growth.


In this final period, via the tasks and the one-on-one meetings now at a much more convenient time for me, I learned how to expand my value on social media, what to concentrate on, how to make myself valuable to other kinksters by showcasing my photography skills and offering my services. Mistress Star had me concentrate on preparing for this new retired life and showed me ways to improve my image on the scene. She got me into the habit of writing a journal, something that helps me understand and control my emotions. Over the year, I have also promoted BoundBDSM events or Mistress Star’s services on Discord, Fetlife, X (Twitter) and on Reddit, all the while having to respect protocol, the proper use of her title, the use of capitalization, and under strict instructions not to upset any members. I am not complaining, in my mind, it adds to the feeling of service and obedience, and keeps me humble and on my toes. More and more I am being asked to record events for the subscription area, which I am happy to do as it’s my small way to give back to the Mistresses.


Via the Obedience app, she set up a system of points for completed tasks and gave me incentives of a private domination session once I reached a certain number of points. I have had the privilege of having one such session. It was a dream come true, where the bondage button was used, so were the Lovense vibration toys and several strikes with the cane. The combination of pain and a wonderful aftercare period left me in tears. I have been advised that I thankfully earned another such session and I cannot wait.

We also discussed the new “House of Damnation” Server, how it was again a step up in protocol and kink, and how it could be beneficial to me in the future, to get that “fix” of submission that I crave.


Final thoughts on year 2023 and beyond

Mistress Star is known for using the stick more than the carrot. Being a flawed slave, I did feel her stick on several occasions, all warranted but I have also been allowed to taste her carrots and they are delicious. Having a pleased dominant is now part of my equation.

Power exchange is a strange animal, I am getting addicted to the fear and the humiliation, and while I work so hard to avoid failing my Mistress, I also will miss the anticipation that I feel once I know that I did, because she knows the wait is hard and enjoys letting me stir for a while “because I can” she often says to me.


I am now retired from work, have fewer financial means, but more time on my hands, and have a detailed plan for my next steps.


I am not going anywhere, if you’ll have me, bondage will remain part of this BDSM community – perhaps a little more free and open in my interventions – and there is a very good chance that I may end up re-signing with Mistress Star or Miss Bella in the future, but for now, I will give my all to


Mistress Star’s plan for me and explore the local scene. I will definitely miss our regular interactions, but it is normal to evolve, and this feels like a normal step in bondage’s evolution.

Just like the baby bird on the edge of the nest, I’m testing my new wings, but the safety of the nest is tempting, and the jump is scary. However, Mistress Star has been right about me all along, so I trust her. Never in a million years did I think I would find my Angel online, in Scotland. My vanilla-self also learned a great deal this past year from the incredible life coach behind the Mistress.


I feel privileged to have served Mistress Star and for a short while Miss Bella this year, and with their wisdom, what I learned made me realize that I want – no – I need kink in my life and now I know that I can have it. After having tried for over 50 years to repress my BDSM feelings, I can now embrace them. I remember that shy, socially awkward submissive who joined BoundBDSM a year ago, and cannot believe what this journey has done for him.


Some things I loved, some I hated, but I learned a lot from all of them. When I look back at my relationship with Mistress Star, I did my best to be a humble and obedient slave, and to ensure that she also received something from our relationship. I’m hoping that she enjoyed dominating me because she gave me more than just what I paid for in every aspect. Mistress Star used a very deliberate dose of dominance on me at every step, enough to enforce my submission to her, but also to push me to expand and understand my kink, while taking great care to know and respect my limits, even protecting them.


This blog entry is my last official task for a while in her stable as a contracted slave, and if Mistress Star finds it good enough to publish and grants this humble slave the honor of sharing it with the community, then my wish is for anyone who is reading it to know a little more about my journey with Mistress Star, to see past her strict exterior, and have a better sense of what she is really all about.


Being a contracted slave, I was privileged to witness and participate in some of the work that goes into maintaining the site and the server, as well as the preparation work behind the events. I can tell you that she works extremely hard at her craft and for her submissives, and this slave appreciates it very much. When I measure what this year has brought me, and compare it with the money I spent, there is no contest, I would do it again in a heartbeat. I just wish that in a few weeks/months, I can report to her that I met someone, or am all in with the local BDSM group, and that her plan for me worked.


slave bondage still has a tremendous amount of growing up to do, but for this year’s growth, from the bottom of my heart, thank you Mistress Star! Serving you this year has been the privilege of a lifetime, I hope to do it again.

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